Friday 31 May 2013

Mountains to climb

Well, went out training on Tuesday and seriously I was like a complete complete beginner. Just couldn't get into any rhythm at all was stopping and got a cramp. But I kept going as best as I could I know what a wall is I think I must have hit a few times at this stage. What I have learned is that you just have to keep plodding on. I'm determined to finish.
I was running the other evening, sweat flowing the sun beating down was lovely but John says to me you are a slow runner aren't you. He didn't mean anything by it, in fact it was the truth but I felt indignant, like I was the only one who say I was slow. The same evening I met someone who was running a half marathon for the first time who was aiming to do it in an hour and a half, when they asked how I was getting on I said "Fine".
Putting that day aside I have a big evening ahead of me the group will meet this evening to do a ten miler, I am going an hour earlier to start it, I aim to finish by hook or my crook. This evening will test my mind more than anything, so I thought I'd have a rant clear any negative thoughts and be in a good frame of mind.
I will do it, I will do it, I will do it!!!

Monday 27 May 2013

Feeling haappppppy

I have to say Tuesday training was never my favourite session and that hasn't changed. My stop sign is still in the same place and as I ran up to it for the third time on Tuesday, I was once again mentally cursing it. But you know what I did it, of course I did because I can. I have to smile sometimes when I think about a session like Tuesday, some people are just naturally gifted and we have a few runners who fit that bill in our group. Liam is just a fast runner there is no slow gear he can't find it, Nora brought her dog with her the dog looked more worn out at the end of our session. But that is what makes the group great because everyone encourages everyone and there is always something to aspire to.
We got our program for the week and the biggest run on it was a 6 mile. Which I completed on Thursday, now I won't lie and say I ran every bit of every mile I didn't. But I ran the majority of it and you know what compared to what I could do I did well. So this week I have completed 18 miles in total. I find that now that mentally I'm not saying to myself you must run every bit I feel I am running better.
Ordered a new pair of Asics so they will arrive next week, so excited! No Jimmy Choos for me!
Sunday, I went into Killarney town to meet the runners who completed the great Irish Marathon 26 miles in 26 counties in 24 hours. Brenda was training the group  and had completed it herself. I have to say they all looked very fresh faced and they had fresh legs, as we ran the last mile with them. Susan, Mags and Aidan were also there, we ran up by the plaza hotel and finished at the Market Cross.
So I look forward to the week ahead.

Monday 20 May 2013

Back to the group.

Well the alarm went off on Saturday morning and I hopped out of my cosy bed, to go running with the group. It felt good to have that focus again, I know it was only  few weeks but it felt so much longer. As we headed off I got into my own pace, slow but that's OK. Brenda has given me a beginners program so I can catch up a bit. so I must run/walk the distances. Which somehow in my head doesn't make them so daunting and when I push on I feel it'll be OK.  I also am trying to conquer my thoughts  when I am running and feeling good, the following thoughts start to enter my consciousness 'I am running, but will I be able to do it. Maybe I'll fail, Maybe it'll be dark before I finish' and then I lose my breath and feel panicked. It happens every now and again, so having expressed these fears to Brenda. She gave me the following words of wisdom 'Trust in what I have achieved so far and trust in her program to bring me over the line". I felt little lighter when I finished training on Saturday. I didn't go as far as the rest of the group but I felt good about the run I did do.
Have had my mind lighten my Brenda on Saturday, I headed on Sunday for a 5mile run/walk, which I did, mostly running. I was tired but felt totally high afterwards.
So with all that an e-mail arrived today to tell me there was 9 weeks left to the marathon!!!!!!

Thursday 16 May 2013

I'M BACK

Yes, I'm back able to run without pain, wincing or crying. So hopefully I will be able to regain any ability I have lost. Yesterday, I ran/walked over 4 and half miles in under 50 minutes which felt good. I ran a good share of it so I felt happy with it. I am heading to training on Saturday. As usual, I will be slow but after the last few weeks I don't mind at least I'll be moving.
I'll keep you updated on Saturdays run next week.

Saturday 4 May 2013

Still Out.

I know a blog is to write updates on the events that are happening well nothing is happening I am still not running. I am not very happy.
My injury wouldn't heal properly for the last few weeks but I feel this week I have turned a corner. I have no pain but I have a slight limp, which means they still won't let me run. My knee gets stiff and heavy but hopefully I will get sorted soon. The Run Killarney run group is now up to 8 mile run I was at 4/5 mile when I left, I am sooo far behind at this stage. I fear for my hard earned fitness. It makes me cry when I think about it.
By the way, I still haven't smoked, but I have really thought about it especially in the 1st week or so when I couldn't run or walk. But I have eaten more so I am getting fatter.
I have decided the following though, I will complete in the Run Killarney Half Marathon, whether I have to run, walk or crawl it. I won't give in.